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    August 21

    Where is my inner peace?

    下着雨的清晨。窗户没关,听得到淅淅沥沥的小雨声,感受着夏天即将过去,秋天就要到来的凉爽。我没有睁眼,拉了拉薄薄的毛巾被,蜷作一团。

    如果是个正常的早晨,就这样醒来也许是再舒服不过了。但是今晨只睡了3个小时就这样醒了,着实恼人。若有似无的雨声显得那么刺耳,毛巾被也隔不去那一丝丝的凉意。今天应该还是工作日吧,外面有汽车压过湿漉漉的马路的声音。或许北京的绿化真的达到效果了,不然怎么有那么多的鸟清早练声,到也许是以往这个时间我睡得正沉,听不到而已?家里有人起床了,穿着拖鞋走来走去,是要去上班吧。拖鞋轻轻地踢踏进我的屋子,玻璃窗滑动的声音,应该没有关上吧,雨声并没减小,倒是凉风小了些。客厅有人聊天,听不清聊什么,关键是根本不想听见。我想睡,虽然没有睁开眼睛,大脑却已经完全清醒,不停的闪过几个小时前在场馆的一些画面。这种状态从不到七点就开始,持续近两个小时,实在无法入睡。身体的疲惫让我继续躺在床上,大脑却好似万能的暴风影音,无法平静。画面闪过几个熟悉的记者、其他业务口找我们门口验证员小姑娘搭讪的家伙、晚上篮球比赛梦八再次带来火爆的场面。。。杂乱至极。

    从4月份的测试赛开始,就睡的很晚了。测试赛后,似乎留下了后遗症,1点之前无论如何睡不着。奥运会晚班,正好也就不用去调整。却是连1点准时睡觉都无法保证,1点多能下班就心满意足矣。这两天甚至是到4、5点才裹上毛巾被睡觉,天都渐亮了。为了能睡着,不得已开始使用眼罩。眼睛被压迫着,也坚持要带。效果不错,能一觉睡到下午2点闹钟响。不知哪个非正常人会跟我一样把闹钟定在这个时间。但今天,同样带着眼罩,却只“昏去”了3个小时。定是神经衰弱了。想起,像是只在高三的时候神经衰弱过。每当我极度缺觉的时候,心跳就会加速,现在就是怦怦的。

    不知不觉,10点多了,今天休赛日,要去值班。下雨了,训练也该取消了吧?

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    Bo Huwrote:
    沙发,听雨睡觉吧
    Aug. 21

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